LaShara Lashawn

The presence of magic doesnt mean the absence of troubles. In fact I would like to submit that when trouble does arrise it makes all the magic that much more beautiful to focus on. My 2022 was absolutely amazing! I didnt post a million pictures, share every highlight on twitter or tell all my friends about every amazing moment. Some of the moments that I will be sharing blew me away to where I didnt always have the words to descibe my amazement. God’s been good, thats it thats the tweet.

At the begining of the year I did what I always do look at my finances, pay taxes (most times late though), budget, set goals, decide on the direction Im going to take and whatever else is important. It was a great start, one of the best. Early on conflicts arose in my dating life that could of been heart breaking but I decided to not take things so personal, and not stress too much over things I couldn’t control. They say the boys are like buses “there will be another one” that’s not exactly how the saying goes but you should get it. However my goal was to be more intentional so I was at the bus stop waiting for a bit!. What you do in your waiting period is so important especially while on your healing journey. Im not going to preach but for those of us that have gone through some things and can identify with being in the process of making changes for the betterment of our lives you can probably attest that sometimes you have to miss out of things that may bring you immediate satisfaction to get where you need to go.

I had the pleasure of being so exhausted, feeling drained, unfulfilled and just over my job. Im not saying this out of sarcasm at all but when I say pleasure, what I mean is that because of this moment of being frustrated it pushed me into my next blessing and maybe had I not been in such a position I might not had made the choices that I had. As they say comfort and change cant live on the same street, and I surely found that out. I was forced to really look at my skills, talents, interest and experience to see where I could go next. I sought out guidance from others I trusted, talked to different people, went on several interviews because I was on a mission until I was told by God to stop, and I did. Obedience is amazing, shortly after a door was open and I was able to get what I was seeking. I felt like that one!

As I started off into my new venture around this same time I met a really great guy out of now where and began to form a relationship. Now this was kinda new for me and very different but I am always up for a challenge. I wont get all deep into it but it was great and super exciting. You know how you can just meet someone and it’s like wow where have you been all my life? Yeah, that feeling. Relationships have always been kinda abstract for me its like is this beauty or just a mess in disguise? Does he really like me or just like what I can provide? Am I too independent or not needy enough. Sometimes I just dive in and give everything but I found that I didnt need to do that I am being loved as I am.

I really kicked butt at work, I gained a mentor and it has been so helpful, my juicing business was and is going well and my personal life is in more of a healthier space. I felt myself maturing and taking things more serious without comparing myself to others. Comparison is a trap, you cant live YOUR life happily if your always looking over at what so and so has, it will ultimately distract you from the beauty and wonderful experiences in front of you. I am different and I am leaning to be very proud of that. Imposter syndrom will have you thinking nothing is for you and are you really the one. Im now getting comfortable with seeing myself as the one and I can back it up. The way I look, talk, walk, my thoughts, how I present myself is all in my unique LaShara way. How I love and show up in relationships is different and Im learning more about myself as Im learning more about the person im dating. It’s interesting how that happens when you are trying to be more inentional.

As I wrap this up finally ( I took 2 months to write this smh) I am happy to walk into 2023 with the trail of glitter behind me. I hope to never forget 2022 and all that it brought me, literally shelter, love, adventure, challenges and more peace. My plan for 2023 is to really clean up my finances, get into some new hobbies (knitting & learning spanish), excelling in my profession, get back into media, going back to therapy, reading more, not taking my self soooo serious and enjoying the things around me. Eventually I do want to talk about how we or I show up for myself, I am working on that this year. Doing more things for me, JUST FOR ME! is a must. Working more magic within will help me shine even brighter.

I hope that this year brings you amazing blessings and opportunities, be encouraged and stay hopeful, show more love and compassion to not only yourself but others as well. Drink more water!

Happy New Year.