LaShara Lashawn

The new year is upon us and I recently realized that I have been actively doing the work daily to set myself up for a better tomorrow. As I tried to think about what I wanted in the new year I had to first pat myself on the back for all that I have done this year. I haven’t wrote a blog since March 2021 and I’m sorry for being absent for so long but trust me, Iv been busy. It was around that time that I met some amazing creatives and I decided to execute my goal of have a mini podcast meetup. It took me and my team 4 months to put the event together and it was a huge success. Come January 2022 I will begin planning the next event. This event stretched me in so many ways I learned valuable lessons when working with others, I gained a new interest for project management, connecting with and meeting the needs of others, I also grew as a leader and over came a lot of fears. The biggest fear I had was it somehow being a bust and being confident in my abilities. I now know that I am very talented and skilled I just had to really look beyond what others said I was and seen LaShara.

Seeing me for me and establishing who I am, has been a real work. If I am not sure, how would anyone else?  With all that said, “Yesterday’s price isn’t today’s price!!!”  After Podcast 101 I had to sit down and write out all the skills that I used to make that event a success and the list was very long not to mention my other skills from my employment experience over the years.  Ya girl got something in her bag for sure. Now as I’m writing I just thought “am I going to mention my personal life?” I think I will go into that a in another blog, but I will say that as I worked on myself, I didn’t leave that out and that some long term relationships surely ended this year and I had to really access what I wanted in my relationships moving forward. For a long time, I felt it was ridiculous to write out a list of what I wanted in a man as well as have a standard on education level and income. It seemed easy, have an education and have some money.. but NO. I need to be more specific. I seemed to be okay with the minimum though majority of the guys I’ve dated went to college and they made and okay amount of money, but I never was confidant in what I wanted specifically.

That’s all changed. I am more intentional, and I know what I want out of my relationships. I still have a few wild hairs I’m trying to get in place but I’m working on it. I’ve realized that I am very independent, and I must learn to yield to a man and submit. I want to but it really isn’t in me like that, when I think I am I’m not and it can cause conflict in a way where my partner feels like he can’t lead. I will surely do a blog in the future on that because damn! Someone give me a manual, how does a independent, self-sufficient who can be slightly aggressive women make room/ step back to allow a man to lead. It’s tough out here!

 I needed help in almost every area of my life, and I really had to invest in myself. Investing with my own MONEY was a big step, there was some anxiety behind that. Investing in myself this year was the best thing Iv done in the last year and a half, shit, EVER. Investing in myself and betting on myself, I’ve been more trusting in God and manifesting great things for my life and like Beyonc`e said, “Be about that action!” I listen to motivational videos, I journal ……so I guess that’s where I been yal, journaling! (That made me laugh lol), I’m trying to complete these certifications next year and become a full-time entrepreneur and grow my business. Listen this whole clocking in thing and people telling you what you are capable of aint it and would be fallacious of me to continue to operate in. Does anyone feel the same? I know I am also worth more than this pay! Don’t let me get to a company that’s on the same wavelength as I cause goodness. Anyway, I’m very grateful and proud of me because I have always been able to reinvent myself, I see the glass full and just waiting for me to pick It up and go. The new year is going to be my F****** playground, I plan to have my way and continue to do great things, learn and grow.

Oh last thought! Manifesting. It might have been last year my sister ask me about manifesting and I really didn’t have an answer about how I felt about it. For all I knew it coulda been witchcraft. Now I have a different perspective. First I will say that I am a firm believer in God and the Holy Trinity and that’s that. Now, manifesting for me is me asking God for certain blessings and me going out putting the work in for them, It’s my mental work. I am telling myself that this is what I desire and that I am going to obtain whatever it is. I was encouraged to manifest at a high level and that blew my mind because for a long time I would again expect the minimum! It was a battle of feeling worthy and not wanting to seem too arrogant. This year I was able to focus on realizing my worth and learning that it is okay to ask for what I want and expect nothing less. What’s the point of manifesting and asking God for something to only expect something mediocre? In so many words I didn’t even believe in what I was asking. Manifesting to me is exercising my faith, it’s the mental grit work. So far I haven’t been disappointed.

I am looking forward to this new year. Wishing you all the best.