Options! They are everywhere. Life is full of choices to be made and different things to choose from. What’s interesting is that with all our options it’s so easy to believe that we have no choice at all. There’s so many factors that come into play with that but that’s not what I want to get into right now.

As I sit on my couch just finishing up a pretty decent salad, I had a choice to make. Initially I was going to have baked chicken, mashed potatoes and a salad. It all sounded so good I even put the meat and potatoes on a plate and put it in the microwave. I was about to get my grub on yal. However I couldn’t bring myself to start the microwave. Then I thought to myself, what’s my goal? I’m trying to loose weight and I swore to cut out carbs. I argued back how I was going to the gym in the morning. I realized it was after nine but I was very hungry. So I had to choose. The salad won.

  I know everything in life isn’t as easy as picking a salad over a hearty meal but I think if we weigh it all out we can come to some decision. One thing I’ve noticed is that when having to choose a small amount of fear can set in along with its cousin doubt. These two can ruin any good plan, goal, future accomplishments, relationship etc. They will make you feel like what you knew you could do is someone the unthinkable, impossible, unobtainable and that you were crazy for even trying.

Iv had a few run ins with these two and sometimes I can over come and other times I’m feeling corned in by my thoughts. Going back to school is a huge goal of mine and I think about it all the time but there are some small things I have to take care of first that I have put off for too long. Bitting the bullet and saying “yes, this is what I’m going to do” and going after it has been so hard. No one was able to make me choose I had to do it on my own.

Not all choices have been good ones but there have been some that I am so great full for even if the end result was not what I expected. As of lately I’m learning that it’s okay to choose myself. I have people that I feel responsible to. It’s like I know they expect cetain things of me. They want me to be succesful and be happpy but there have been time where my aspirations werent a priority to anyone. Not even to myself. I know poor me, right? Well not exactly, I had a lot of fun along the way, I did’nt really mind or maybe I did not notice. Something happened not to long ago and it hit me like what the heck have I been doing?? So I grabed a paper and pen and started to wrtie and write and write somemore about my likes, dislikes, triggers, goals, wants, EVERYTHING that mattered to me. What I found was that most things had an excuse as to why I didnt or felt I couldnt. So simply put I said “F! this, Im doing me! Amzing, right then I felt powerful in my ability to just choose.

I hope you have choosen yourself. If your still trying to figure it out, thats okay. Id love to read about your experices too.