LaShara Lashawn

I read a passage from my daily devotional by Joyce Meyers and it was speaking about making a change. Change is something thats always happening, that will continue to happen till the end of time. The major question is whats your relationship with change?

Are you afraid of change? How do you deal with change?

I’ll  let you think on that. For me,  change has been a constant  part of my life, good bad and unwarranted.I love change because it’s something different it posses new challenges and for a person who loves to be challenged and tends to get bored or wants to find alternative ways to do things change is great.

The biggest changes of my adult life was moving out on my own (transitioning from teen to adulthood), transferring from a community college (semester system) to a University (quarter system), being celibate, my first love break up and giving my life to Christ.

Through life I have to make changes frequently, at work, my route to work, how I prepare meals, relationships etc. It’s best when presented with change examine it and look at all the good aspects of it. When coping with change if you have a pessimistic approach it will be difficult. Now there is change that is sometimes forced upon us.

I’ve experienced some unwarranted abuse and let downs in life that have changed my life. I can only learn from them and thank God I made it through and not let those experinces change my attitude from being positive and optimistic about my future.

Celibacy has been the biggest change and to deal with it I have a good friend I check in with from time to time. In a weird way its fun, I am able to see clearer then I ever have. Im more interested in the person not what they can do for me. I’m able to see people for who they are. Not being able to fulfill that desire was a struggle. I thought no one would like me or I’d dry out and turn to dust 😁.

Surprisingly I have yet to do so. I take one day at a time and I focus on whats important. That act that I enjoyed without any thought has become much more sacred to me. A moment thats so short, means so much and can result in a tied spirit is only worth giving to someone who is ready to be responsible for me and commit. What I’ve learned was that being celibate doesnt mean you’ll be celibate forever.

I pray daily that God continues to prepare me for the man that he has created for me. At one point I feared I’d  never find him and that having sex would help me find and or both keep a man. WRONG!!!  I’ve learned to trust God because in him there will be changes but he never changes.

Embrace  change no matter how you come in contact with it. Dont be afraid to make changes either, if its not working if your not getting the results you want, try something else. I couldnt use the same study methods when I transferred colleges, I couldnt act like a carefee child when I moved into my first apartment I had to make changes and in certain aspects of my life things weren’t going right so I gave my life to God.

Throughout all the changes made good and bad God stayed the same.